Stupidity strikes again!

That's so stupid! I don't wanna look at it!

Today's a day of mixed emotions. It all started in a good way.

I woke-up early just in time to arrive....

Oh f*ck, I'm in no mood to write how my day went.

To make things short, I bought my first smartphone today, a Cherry Mobile Flare, with an awesome specs, for a very cheap price. Waited in line for almost 4 hours, but spending 4,000 pesos for such phone is worth it, in my humble opinion.

We went back to school after buying, found out that we don't have class, and stayed a while in the food court. Then she came, and I guess didn't really care to notice me. It felt pretty awkward knowing that we usually send messages to one another. It made me sad, but I was able to endure it.

And now, I tried and post a sweet pick-up line, without any intention of giving meaning to it. Then her post came, and it seemed like someone else was making a move on her. Now that was really really f*ckin' awkward.

But why should I react, I didn't mean anything to her, right? It's just really painful, knowing that I kept secrets from her, risky secrets that I didn't even get the chance to share it to her. It's risky in a way that it might change things, for better or for worse.

Next time, I'll try to be more honest and sincere. Next time, I'll try to get a girl using honesty and sincerity, not by cheezy pick-up lines.

I FEEL REALLY F*CKIN' STUPID, MEN! I'M SO STUPID I WANNA DIEEEEEEEE!

End of the line!

Everything comes to an end.

I realized last night what that line truly means. "There is more to life than love.". I guess, I should stop pretending to be a lover boy, and stop catching the attention of the girl I like. Like what her message said last night, "God has a better plan".

So that's it I guess, it's the end of the line. I won't pursue her. I'll stop pretending to be something I'm not. But I'm happy that we're acquainted with each other. That at least, she, or maybe both them, knows I exists in this fuckin' world.


So now, maybe I'll forget about that love stuff, and try to divert my attention to something that is needed for the moment. There's a ton of deadlines ahead of me.

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A little while ago, while chatting again with her bestfriend, I confirmed that she's somewhat broken. But there's nothing I can do. I'm not her friend. So maybe, I'll just pray for her. I believe that she's a strong girl. That's why maybe I was attracted to her. A total opposite of me.

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God has a better plan, so I won't rush into things. But I'll try to be a better gentleman to those around me. Maybe one day...

Thanks for passing by! Have a great day! =D

November, Moving On, and Focus!

I'm as good as dead, I guess. -_-

So it's November, a few more days and it'll be Christmas already. Well, a lot of things had happened during the past months. Experienced different things for the first time, and there are several things that brought back the feelings I've decided to forget.

But I guess, you can say that the pain is worth remembering. It brought me back to life. Pain is a sign of being alive. I just have to endure it to survive.

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Thanks to her, yes, you!

Yes, she's the one. The one I've been chatting to for some time. I dunno what happened. Yes I was wrong. I hoped that something would developed between me and her bestfriend. I know it's a foolish thing. I didn't expect it to happen either. But she was there, during the process. We just had some messages, friendly ones. Nothing serious actually. I just went with the flow, and suddenly, I felt no pain at all. I guess, it's all thanks to her. Having someone to talk to is all I need anyway.

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Now that our semestral break is almost over, I need to be back on focus. I've got lots of things to do. And our thesis is on top of the list. But anyways, those are school matters, and I'll have to deal with it one way or another.

Well, I'll miss the times those times when I was chatting with her through Facebook. I guess, something like this won't happen again. But anyways, I'll see them in school, both of them, but I don't know what to do. I may not be able to do something also. Hahahaha. Maybe I'll just go on with the flow and let's see what's gonna happen to us.

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This morning, I've seen a post. It's about 'pre-emptive supalpal'. In other words, being on the 'friend zone'. So I went to the source. It's from a series of videos from youtube. The series is entitled 'Tales from the Friend Zone'. It features letters of love-turned-friendship sent to him. Those six episodes as of now was really funny, but has some good points. I learned a few things in this. And his usual ending quote says, "There is more to life than love.".

But yeah, I guess, I really fell for it. I was dropped dead in that zone, 'friend zone'. So maybe I should lower my expectations on things. Hahahaha.

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WALL-E and EVE. A strange but cute couple. =D
Just found the image here. Credit goes to the owner.

Aside from the occasional chats and messages, I've been watching a lot of movies during the break. Don't ask me where I got those. Hahaha.

Anyway, one of my favorites would be WALL-E. There are very few lines in this movie, and yet, the story was really good.There's this lesson, about taking care of the environment, and there is this love story, I suppose, of WALL-E and EVE. They're my new favorite couple. Hahahaha =D

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So I guess that's it. November, please be gentle on me. But I'll also be looking forward for some surprises, so surprise me too. Give it your best shot.

And to you, thanks for passing by! God bless! =D